Hostility

Doesn't it bother you when people get hostile with you? When they connect with you normally until you confront them with something that they really aren't making an effort to face? I hate it when they try to cover it up afterwards by saying that everything is alright or that they "understand" now; but that's never really the case. They might claim to have changed their minds, but it's most likely that they did that to makes things smooth over. Then they forget....

But do you? Do you really forget every time that you suffered because of the hostile answer or response of somebody else? Do you really understand where they are coming from or why they are making such a spectacular effort to sway you from your original idea or want? Do you really think that they care that much about you that they want to help you make a decision that will be the right one?

Well listen up, they probably do... Have you ever responded to somebody with the same hostility or the same judgement that is described here? Have you ever tried to get somebody to make you think the way you do or the way you want them to because it will benefit you? Stop that!! Don't you realize what your doing? You are stifling every single dream they ever acheived and taking that one white heart of hope way from them. You are snuffing out each candle of possibility and determination they light. But worst of all, you are doing the thing that you yourself can't stand...

I watch her look for something else; something i've never met or gotten to befriend. She searches and speaks out, but nobody knows how to answer. I know her and she knows me; our silent bond grows stronger with time and I yearn to understand what it is that she seeks, what she is trying to tell me. Maybe it's classified news and only those with like minds can understand...but I try and I will keep trying.

I yearn to know what hurts her or what makes her content. I want to know what she sees and what she ponders. What her thoughts are clouded with or what she first thinks of in the morning when she stretches and begins again.

They say communication is key to all relationships, yet this one is silent; void of the same words. Yet full of speech of the heart and tie unseen.

Free Yourself

Free yourself...let yourself fly above everything you've ever feared. Everything you've ever ever given up on and each thing you worry about when you wake up. Feel the air rustle each feather as you spread your wings in flight. Soar above the wind and conquer; fight!

Speech

Do you ever feel like no matter how much you say, the listener would have appreciated silence? Or no matter how much they tell you to be silent, you know they are dying to hear the aching of your heart? Why does silence separate us? Why does the absence of words take the tight grasp you're holding and unfold each finger until you slip?

Sometimes it's unfortunate that we let things go. That familiar feelings and dreams are almost foreign to us after we let them slip away. But once we pull our boots on and search the mud for those forgotten feelings it feels so good to have them back and to live them out again.