Conflicted

Conflicted; a feeling of seperation. A feeling of longing for something that is just out of your reach. The list of your abilties is blotted with the sour juices of regret orf unuse. you want to pick a word off of the list and use each letter until they become shards opf dust that are good for nothign more than the garbage. But wouldn't that be better than leaving them to rot?