Aging

The adult mind is so consumed with image and apearance that it forgets the youthful thoughts and attitudes that it used to value and cherish. They have all been replaced with "reason" and "maturty". But if you stop and really think about it, the media has redifined the meaning of the word "reason" to the point of it not even meaning anything important. Things that are reasonable in this day and age can be disgustingly brutal an uncalled for. It is disappointing that my mind has matured and has been able to wrap its spongy arms around these concepts. When I was younger, the sunny weather or the cloudy sky was all that I was worried about.

But I guess that's one of the rainstorms of life. You lose the loves of your childhood and you gain the responsibility of the world yet that spark of your memories comes back to you every now and again. ;)

Comfort For Today

Ecclesiastes 5:18-20

18Then I realized that it is good and proper for a man to eat and drink, and to find satisfaction in his toilsome labor under the sun during the few days of life God has given him—for this is his lot. 19 Moreover, when God gives any man wealth and possessions, and enables him to enjoy them, to accept his lot and be happy in his work—this is a gift of God. 20 He seldom reflects on the days of his life, because God keeps him occupied with gladness of heart.

~These verses were really comforting to me today. Verse 20 made me feel very confident that the Lord would keep me happy with my fuure if I continue to follow Him. :) I am in for a peaceful and content life with the Lord.

Putting Together The Pieces!

When your glass breaks, glue it back together,
When your glass is half empty, tell yourself it's half full;
When you feel like you can't take anymore, rejoice in the opportunities you've had,
And when you feel like giving up, just tell yourself your almost there.

Let People Go and Bring Yourself In!

The dependance of a person goes beyond what they think they know about themselves. Somebody might never realize how dependant they are on a certain person until they have to be seperated from them. However, this can be an essential and important part of life. If you love somebody very much, you will most likely feel very dependant of them. Make sure though, that your dependance goes beynd mere need. Make sure that love is at the very end of your dependant ladder. If you need somebody that badly you might want to step back from the ladder and see if you can climb it by yourself. This might be hard, but when you reach the top, you might realize that the person you started climbing with isn't somebody that you need in the same way after all. Maybe they can become a friend that you will visit with after the ladder is climbed. You might just find that it is much better to just go in and climb it alone...Just you, your confidence, and your Creator...

My Prayer

My prayer for today...

Please let everything with my friends just slide over.
Please help them to all realize that friends can work things out.

Help me to be the change I want to see in Kory and in my friends.
Help me to produce "the good fruit" and to be gentle and patient.
Help me to wait...

Please comfort the family with the moving situation.
Please bless Dad with peace and the ability to make a decison.

Please help Kory and I to work things out and get along.
Help me to be patient and willing to listen to him and what he wants in the relationship.

Help me to be cheerful at work and to realize the gifts that I have.
Let my attitude be cheerful at home, work, and school and help me to focus.

I want to improve....

Good Morning World!

Goodmorning world!

I'm ready for the challenge today! I feel like my heart is an open window that is drinking in the beautiful sunlight that we call life. Not everyday can be full of pleasure, but my heart is ready to start filtering out all the dust and sand to be left with the beautiful pearl.

I want to become somebody that enjoys those small moments. Someone who can be known for their happy personality and constant strength. I am so blessed to still have my wonderful gift. I need to enjoy each day as it comes.

Stargirl's Time Poem

Who Came up with minutes, anyway?

Who needs them?

Name one good thing a minute's ever done.

They shorten fun and measure misery.

Get rid of them, I say.

Down with minutes!

And while you're at it-take hours

with you too. Don't get me started

on them.

Clocks that's the problem.
Every clock is a nest of minutes and hours.

Cocks strap us into their shape.

Instead of headingfor the nearest star, all we do

is corkscrew.

Clocks lock us into minutes, make Ferris wheel

riders of us all, lug us round and round

from number to number,
dice the time of our lives into tiny bitsuntil the bits are all we know

and the only question we care to ask is

"What time is it?"

Self Confidence

Self-Confidence-realistic confidence in one's own judgment, ability, power, etc.

Realistic, is that the key word we should be focusing on here? No! Not one little bit. Realistic tells us to be confident with only what we know we can achieve. But who says we can't build confidence and grow in bravery and self contentment to a level that once seemed completely unrealistic and impossible? If we slowly add building blocks to the wall of our confidece, we will eventually be able to have realistic confidence and completely fulfil what we thought was impossible!!

Being strong and brave with yourself is hard. Take time to spend a little bit of money on yourself or to spend a bit of extra time with some of the peope that make you feel important or special. Especially regarding a relationship. Being brave and confident in your own abilities and your own self will be a huge help when you join together in a relationship with somebody. If they ever ditch you or need to take some time alone, you will need to learn to rely on yourself for all of the support that you would have received from them. Don't forget the tiny and peaceful voice that speaks to us in the stillness of the night. God wants to help you strengthen yourself and your confidence level. He wants to be he other person that you turn to when you need some time with a friend that will lawyas be there for you. :)

Character Inspiration: Stargirl

After recently reading this novel, I was very inspired. The protagonist of this story, Stargirl, was not a very popular teen. She dressed the way she wanted to and she sang with her ukelele at lunch. She brought along a table cloth and a flower vase to decorate her school desk with, and she passed out treats to all of the students in her homeroom. She was gentle and peaceful and she never wanted to hurt anybody. So why did the student body shun her and ignore her? They did this because she refused to conform and she wasn't afraid to be herself. I remind myself of Stargirl in some ways... I cheer for other teams and I dress the way I want to. I am hoping that after being inspired by this amazing character I will be able to take my admiration for this attitude into greater consideration and start to show a more relaxed and enjoyable side of myself.

My Love

Oh, my love, my darling,
I've hungered for your touch a long, lonely time
And time goes by so slowly and time can do so much
Are you still mine I need your love, I need your love
God speed your love to me
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea
To the open arms of the sea
Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me
I'll be coming home, wait for me
Oh, my love, my darling
I've hungered, hungered for your touch a long, lonely time
And time goes by so slowly and time can do so much
Are you still mine I need your love, I, I need your love
God speed your love to me